Dreams, Dreams, Go Away

OK so I keep having dreams about a certain person from my past who I really very strongly do not like. I can actually say I hate this person. I think it has something to do with these sleeping pills I'm taking in place of my Ambien for now. They keep making me dream about people from my past. Cuz the last 3 torturous nights I've dreamt about this person & they will not leave me alone!!!! They are haunting my dreams!!! I'd just rather say they than he or she cuz only 2 people know who I'm actually talking about & I'd like to keep it that way for now. Well, actually I'd tell Jen & LD too but aaaaaaaanyway.....

In my dreams I always hate this person & I'm trying to hurt them about 75% of the time. Usually it's one of those things where I can't move fast enough so I'm trying to punch them but I can't cuz my arm can't swing fast enough but last night was great, I actually beat the crap outta them altho they got me in the eye once. LoL yeah I know, I'm seriously crazy. But anyway, I was telling my mom about it & I was saying how much I wish this person would stay the hell outta my dreams & she said I needed to forgive this person (for myself). And I said how the hell are you supposed to forgive someone when you hate them so much??? And then I was thinking about it when I was peeing (yup) & I realized I wasn't completely sure why I hated this person so I'm gonna figure that out right now.

1. The 1 reason I do know - this person is a disgusting excuse for a human being and the world would be a much better place if they were not taking up space on it or breathing the same air that actual humans breathe.
2. I don't wanna be too specific on this one but let's just say they always went after things they didn't want just because I did.
3. Betrayal. A lot of betrayal before I even knew they were like that & a ton after.
4. This person has f'd over a LOT of people.
5. That one person. I think that's what pisses me off the most. How could I ever in my life forgive that?????
6. I'm sure this piece of trash stole from me. God only knows how much.
7. Being a bad influence is so not cool. And then not even caring about it....
8. Just thinking about this person grosses me out. The way they walk, talk, move, sleep, breathe, do everything. Ewww. It's just disgusting. Gross, gross, gross!!!!!

I don't like people who aren't good people. I'm not saying I'm Mother Teresa (altho I do have the same Jung result as her LoL) but there's people like her, then people like me, then things like this person. Scum of the earth. Too good for you to spit on. Too good for you to shit on. Altho that would be extremely fun to do. Just something that doesn't deserve to be called a person, but a thing, something that should be put out of its misery (and mine and many others') so the world can breathe a sigh of relief. Great, now I know there's gna be another dream 2nite after bringing all this up. I was clenching my fists thinking about #5. Still am. So maybe this was a 1st step in getting past this cuz I am SICK of dreaming about this bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (BTW, I use bitch & asshole unisexily so that didn't really give away anything.)