Uh-Oh Elizabeth

I finally got a new shrink. She's actually a CSW (Certified Social Worker) but I will be referring to her as my shrink cuz it's easier. Her name is Elizabeth & she likes to make eye contact & it makes me extremely uncomfortable. Well, all the shrinks I've seen have made eye contact, I think they're supposed to but I don't like it. But then again if they didn't I might think they weren't paying attention to me. Oohhhh I just can't win, can I? She said she's not sure she thinks I have SAD, so she's crazy. LoL, no j/k she just has to get to know me better. I have no doubt that I have it. My next app't is Thursday. I'm really gna need it considering how incredibly motherf'ing pissed I am right now. There's a situation going on with some family members-make that A family member of mine & I literally-seriously-have never been more angry in my entire life. Not even when I found out my ex-bf was cheating on me with practically the entire city of Buffalo. I've been debating whether to write about it on here cuz it might make me feel better but I dunno if I should put it all out there. Prolly not. At least for now. I'll just say that I really hate fake people-that is, people who act a certain way in front of ur face but are in reality a completely different person-& someone I know (and love) needs to grow some balls.

OK now that I've said that, I shall speak of the miracle that occurred last Friday. I spoke in class. I almost crapped my pants then died but I guess I didn't cuz I'm still alive. I dunno if I've mentioned that both my on-campus classes this semester have about 400-450 people in them, which obviously for someone like me is pretty much torture. So I sit in the very front on the very end so I can't see all the people in the room & can escape quickly. Well, on Friday in Developmental Psych we were talking about babies' babbling & their 1st words & she asked if any of us knew our 1st words, if they were something other than mama or dada. So I, even to my own surprise, raised my hand & told her my 1st word was "Uh-oh. I don't know if that counts." 7 whole words. Whew!! Scary. Yes, my 1st word was uh-oh. I think it was pretty foretelling of my life to come, LoL. There've been other times where I've wanted to say something in class, mostly ask a ? but I've been too afraid of sounding stupid or my voice cracking or just not coming out at all. Both those things have happened to me b4. Not really since high school but still....

Well, I bought The Sims 3 the other day & I've been not playing it for about 15 min. now so I'm starting to go through withdrawal I better get back.